I find March to be so temperamental. It’s dreary, it’s chilly, and it flip-flops between those warm “Look at me, I’m almost springtime!!” days, and those “ha ha surprise, I bet you didn’t expect THIS fresh dump of snow!” days. February is predictably chilly, and I’m okay with that. April is a sunny preview of what lies ahead. March – well, she’s a temperamental, cranky bitch. Already this month, the pruners have been out in the vineyards, getting an early jump on pruning the vines only to wake up to a fresh blanket of snow. I’m over it. Bring on summer.
It’s been a rough couple of weeks. Bernard and I went to Vancouver last week, for a few days of visiting friends and family, getting some wedding registries set up, and going tuxedo shopping with the groom’s party. All good. What we didn’t expect was to catch the Superbug of 2012 – a debilitating, horrible flu that smacked us both inside out and upside down, and didn’t let up for a week. It crept up really slowly, awakening with just a mild cough. I went about my day, and even made plans for a friend’s birthday celebrations that evening. Within an hour, I was convulsing on the sofa, riddled with aches, fever and chills. It was horrible. Bernard joined in the fun as well, and the two of us were quarantined in our house, taking shots of NyQuil and rubbing Vicks Vaporub on each other before an 8pm bedtime. If that’s not romance…
After more than a week, it lifted. Nutritionally, we’ve subsisted on chicken noodle soup, and my newest favourite, Arroz Caldo. It’s a Filipino congee (or risotto), packed full of piercing ginger slices, shredded chicken, and is thicky, creamy, and filling. After eating Saltines and green tea for days, it was just what we needed.I took no photos, and followed no recipe, but I promise to share the gist of it soon. And so, a week and a half later, the hibernation was over. I had only left the house twice, and even at that, it was once to shop for medicine at Walmart, and a second trip to take the garbage out to the curb. Cabin fever was at its pique, and I needed relief.
To top things off, just before the Superbug hit, I was called back for a second interview, for a marketing position that I was really quite excited about. I’d had a second interview, thought that I nailed it, and waited for what what felt like years. Finally, while in a weakened state of medicine-induced lightheadedness, was told that I didn’t get it. Overqualification was cited, which is a hard pill to swallow when you know you spent the interviews trying your best to be well-spoken, to draw on all the best past experiences, to really sell yourself. I thought the description was basically written for me, it incorporated every element of my passions…and in the end, they wanted someone with less experience. I’m sure it’s all for the best, it always is. But still, it left a bruise. I was really hoping for this one, and opportunities don’t come around very often in this small town. And so….the perils of March had hit, in a much more personal place.
With a weakened body and an aching heart, I needed some fresh air. Desperately. The sunshine was calling my name, and I was in need of some quiet, some reflection, and some positive thinking. Doctor’s orders. I grabbed my camera, and headed out. Desperate for some clarity, some sense of positivity, some peace.

In March, everything looks like this. Brown. Unkept. Unruly. Without purpose. In a way, it’s how I felt.

This is a lilac bush. In a month or two, these lilac bushes will be stunning + fragrant. But right now, they are nothing to look at.

But if you look close, the buds are starting to burst. Up close, beautiful things are happening.
Signs of the spring ahead are really there, if you stop to see. Beauty is there, but you have to search it out.

Even the knarly, knotted cherry trees are showing signs of new growth. The delicate red twigs pointing upwards are all new.

I walked down to the beach. (It’s a bit blurry – I forgot to take my camera off macro). It was so quiet down there, so sunny and peaceful.

I closed my eyes and let the sun wash over my face. The cold air in the March sun is so revitalizing.


I’m happy to have taken the time to bring the camera along in search of some beauty. It’s there, if you look close enough. The fresh air, the sunshine, the quiet – it does wonderful things to a racing mind. The self-doubting negative thoughts were pretty much gone by the time I made it home.
But just to be sure, I did what any reasonable woman with an upset heart would do. I painted my toenails hot pink, I ate a cupcake* for breakfast….and I got on with my day with a renewed sense of purpose. The rest of the day, I’m happy to say, was a whole lot happier than the day before.

**a few days before, in the middle of our quarantine, I made cupcakes. We had both been feeling lousy, so I figured that a treat was in order. Nothing special, just some tasty coconut cupcakes using some coconut shards that Bernard’s dad had brought back from his last trip to the Phillippines. I got the recipe here, from Smitten Kitchen, and it was a great chance to finally use the coconut oil I’d bought at Trader Joe’s. I even made icing, also using coconut oil instead of butter. They were delectable. Didn’t even take pictures of the pretty ones (I finally took a photo, of the last one right before I ate it for breakfast. Of course, it was the small one that was scraping the bowl for enough batter. Pretty, it might not be, but satisfying, it sure was).

Sunshine. Fresh air. Coconut Cupcakes. Pink toesnails. All the things it takes to chase away the flu and the bad days.
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